Sometimes, people get mad at you and you don't even know the reason why. Pag nagkamali ka, papagalitan ka o kaya sisigawan ka na parang you NEVER did anything good and right in your whole life. I KNOW I'M NOT PERFECT, AND NO ONE IS. I KNOW I'M STUPID. I KNOW I'M AN IDIOT. I KNOW I'M BAD. I KNOW I'M NOT SMART. ALAM KONG WALANGHIYA AKO. ALAM KONG TANGA AKO. ALAM KONG PURO SAKIT NG ULO LANG ANG NADUDULOT KO SA INYO. I admit all these things. But please, PLEASE. Wag nyo naman akong sigawan na parang gusto nyong marinig ng buong mundo na WALA AKONG KWENTA. Wag nyo naman akong i-compare with the smarter and better students or kids out there. Kase hindi naman puro kasamaan, kagaguhan, at katangahan ang nagagawa ko. Kahit papano, alam ko namang may nagagawa pa rin akong tama. TAO LANG PO AKO. Hindi ko kayang gawin lahat ng gusto nyong gawin ko. I CAN'T BE THE EXACT PERSON YOU WANT ME TO BE. May limitations din naman ako. Minsan nga, tinatanong ko nalang yung sarili ko, "Why do I exist? Does my existence even make sense? Is there even at least one person in this world who's happy that I am existing?" I tried making you proud. I tried being who you want me to be. I tried being as smart as you want me to be. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry kung lahat ng yun, I failed them. Sorry if I can't be the kind of daughter you want me to be. I tried my best. But it seems like...my BEST ain't enough. I'm not mad at you. I just want you to understand me, and accept me for who I am. I never explained my side, for when I speak, you wouldn't even listen to me. Believe me, I never wanted to disappoint you. Siguro, I don't know. Nakakabit na sakin yun. Lagi kong naiisip na, I'M JUST A DISAPPOINTMENT. I'M JUST A MESS. I'm sorry for being such a stupid daughter. I'm sorry kung napakawalang kwenta kong anak. If only you could choose your sons/daughters, one thing's for sure: IT'S NOT GONNA BE ME, AND IT WILL NEVER BE ME.
P.S. Sorry. Dito ko nalang kase pwedeng ilabas lahat eh. Napupuno na kasi ako
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